Thursday 24 March 2016

Always part-hidden...

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It's been a long, hard, fear-filled Winter...

I've neglected my blog, my online friends - partly through choice, partly through sadness, partly through a need to preserve my fragile Self.

I still have nothing to 'say', other than I'm here... here on my blog, but not really anywhere else in the virtual world. Me, and Facebook, have never really got on, but that's where folk seem to be...

But I don't want to be there, comparing virtual lives. I want to be in the Real World, talking to Real People, writing Real Letters, exchanging Real Wee Gifties. Hence I've kept the Contact Form on the greatly reduced sidebar, so if you want to keep in touch by the good, old-fashioned letter-writing mode, do drop me an email so we can exchange real, postal addresses :)

Throughout the Winter, I have been making my Moonboards each New and Full Moon, living by the Celtic Tree Calendar, but I've not had the physical, or emotional, energy to photograph and share. Maybe next Moon...

I've not been reading much online, preferring to read Real Books. I've been taking this Reading Challenge, and may share what I'm reading in future posts.

But I have been reading this blog - simply because it's soft, it's gentle, it's thought-full and thought-provoking. And in an increasingly hostile world, it feel Real, Honest, Genuine.

Also, I've been reading this book, and have been decluttering - sending multiple bags of clothes and books to charity, selling a few pieces on ebay. There's still 'stuff' to sort, but I've made a start, and of that I am proud.

As I move towards my 52nd birthday next month, I'm very aware of trying to create the life I want, and not the life the world seems to think I should want. Yes, the Real Life I want is one where I'm fit and well and in gainful employment, but that Life may never exist for me now.

So I'm trying to create the Life I can, with who I am now, and what I can do realistically. Trying to be kind, to be thoughtful, trying to find a gentle place to Be... 




16 comments:

  1. Oh claire, I was thinking of you the other day as I went through all my old blogs and even stuff on pintrest to delete, but left yours and a few others for just a bit longer and sooooo glad I did. Here you are a few days after with a new post. I hope youre hanging in there, and with spring comes hope, hope that life will sort itself out, and you can create the life youre wishing for. I felt sad after reading your post, and hope that everything is ok with you. Winters can be long and hard. Ditto long hot summers too as we have here. I too have begun reading and enjoying the read tea leaves blog, its a very nice and gentle read isnt it? ok hope you continue to post in here if you can, I have always enjoyed reading your words! All the best and hugs to you! krissie.

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    1. Bless you, Krissie, for your lovely, lovely comment. Do you still blog? Are you on FB? It'll be good to stay in touch :) x

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  2. Hello Claire, I'm not on either anymore! I sometimes think about reviving the blog, but then I have always preferred to be a reader rather than a writer of it. but you know what they say, never say never, I may revive both some day! Thanks for posting in a reply to my comment! Take care. K.

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  3. Claire, I have missed your posts. Glad to see a bit of you here. It's always a calming moment for me. Hugs to you my friend.
    Kate

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    1. Thank you, Kate :) And thank you for your lovely letter/card - I'll write back over this Easter weekend :) xx

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  4. Dear Claire, I understand you, sometimes this virtual world can be too much distraction, and sometimes negative for us. Glad to see you back. Too cloudy around here, I couldn't see the full moon this month, but she is there, I can feel her present under my skin. Love to you!

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    1. I couldn't see her either - very cloudy too, but like you, I felt her presense :)
      Sadly, I've become more cautious of this virtual world - some nasty experiences...

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  5. I think you are doing the most important thing of all - mindfully trying to Be all that you can, rather than thinking what you Do is the font of your value. I believe that, when we think people's worth is in what they do (especially in how they make money doing it) then we are heading towards a very dark place where the invalid, the elderly, the disabled, are considered unwanted by society. But being kind and gentle - these are what we most need in this day and age. And we need the strength and wisdom of survivors. So thank you for all that you are. :-) And also for the link to my little weblog :-)

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    1. Thank you, Sarah, for this lovely comment... Your gentle heart, shared through your writing, has helped me A LOT these dark months. Bless you x

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  6. Hello, Claire, have missed reading your posts, so sorry you have had a bad winter, as others have said, you have to nurture yourself. Take comfort in the fact ythat your friends are thinking of you. I think this winter has been a dull damp miserable affair, not even any crisp white snow to brighten the days, at least not in East Sussex anyway, but now spring has arrived and the beauty in nature is lifting all our spirits. Take care, sending healing thoughts and caring energies your way. xx

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    1. Thank you, Wendy :) Yes, similar weather here too, but the brighter, warmer days are approaching (slowly), so I hope to get out and about more... Bless you for your kind thoughts xx

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  8. I wish you as much love and light as I wish for myself. May our hearts heal. Kiss from Portugal

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  9. Spring is almost here - hang in there! Love and hugs from Long Island!

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  10. From experience, all I can say is the decluttering, simplifying, and coming back to the "real" are the best things any of us can do to take care of ourselves. I also read Sarah's blog, and it's one of the most calming things I've found in ages. Bless you on your journey. . . .

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Your comments mean a lot. They show I'm not alone. Thank you!